WenYan's Life

2006-01-09T20:36:00.000-08:00

left alone to die ...
nothing can change it
how i wish i could just sleep and nvr have to wake up again ..
never .. ever ...

you .. definately not YOU !!

2005-11-17T02:29:00.000-08:00

hihi ,
so long nvr visit this place liao . also dunno what to type here . sometimes , i realli wonder why . when everyon si so good to mi and why you .. nvr thought .. you would do that to me ! maybe mani would think you are a good person . but i am 99 % sure that they must be joking . ya. i am sure . leaving you soon . maybe you would think that this might not be for you . i have no idea too . confused . maybe you would think i am joking . i am not . i can seriouly tell u that . i am also veri angry . what friend are you . lucky i am leaving you soon . luckily . haha . congrats . to me . you are just a selfish person . so unkind . so bossi . so bad . so unfriendly . dunno lah . definately more than that . ya . why can't you be like others ? can't believe it . you were the closest to mi tt time . i wonder why .
come back for more .
bb

die tomorrow

2005-10-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

heys all ,
know something , i die tml lehh ... tml muz get back mi results liao ... sure die one
hiaz how ? dunno lehh juz pray that i can go into combination B ... haha
though i think i am not going into the combination , i juz HOPE . haha . have you ever thought og having a heaven when you are in hell , well , you can juz dreamm ...
maybe lorr .. you know , things aren't getting on well . i realli dun understand people . there are juz nothing but juz some brainless creatures , though i think that there are nice people around . how mani are juz selfish creatures . you see, though i think that we are juz hoping to be the best of the best in this everchanging world . hiazz . juz can't wonder how life would be like 10 years down the road ... mani things are juz not what you think should be like . more and more people are changing from the bad to the worse , which includes mi . hahas . even the slightest thing like your food could realli affect the impression from mani people . have you ever thought of living in a would of kindness , care , love and warmth ?? or rather a world of cruelty and hopelessness . i think i have been thinking of B . haha
aniwae , life have to go on . wishing mi all the best . haha . feel like crying . how ????
gtg for now . see a next time . biess .

WenYan

my darling ...

2005-09-02T22:26:00.001-07:00

i seriously dun know what is wrong .
i seriously want to know what is wrong .
i seriously want to know what has happened .
can you tell mi ?
maybe i juz do not know about this . my attitude problem . i think i have already put in my best when it is only 90% .Maybe this is not the life that i should live . Maybe i should give up something . Maybe this is the most that i can do for you ......

Have you ever thought of what it was like to have someone to fight with you for something ?? Be it something you like , something you love and something you care for . thousands of competitiors fighting for your darling . maybe that's the problem . why can't we share . why can't we talk about it and make peace . why is it like that !!

when you want it , others will sure take it away from you . when you do not want it , there are thousands of it right in front of you . why can't we seize these chances rather than fighting over things that are not possible to be yours .

why do we often like to gossip . why do we not know how to appreciate the creations around us . why do we always have something to say when we are not supposed to . why are we always commenting on something which are redundant . why are we always getting so much thinking from others which we do not enjoy .

must we always get the right punishment then we know what we should do at the right time . do we have to understand under the circumstances of cane . do we only know what to do and what not to do when there are something special beside us . must we always have this thing with us that is so precious that we cannot let go .

how can we learn from our mistakes . how can we understand what the others are trying hard to do for us . how can we ever know what the things that are around us which we can appreciate and care for .

can we show our love , care and concern for that thing even when there is tons of it like rubbish . can we ever learn from our mistakes . can we ever rise up free and easy . lead a non- stressful life .

i bet many would never understand what on earth is going on on my stupid mind . i admit it . sorry to you . you are something i will never forget . nor throw aside . i'm really sorry . what can't i juz help you . but somtimes , there are so much problems which i need your help . you are juz like my heart . in my heart . i will never let you go . i would rather die than let you out of my heart . do not fear .............

your darling ,
WenYan

harpy tea-cher's dae ...

2005-08-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

heeee ... feeling so sad and emotional now ... juz came back from my pri school and it was so touching . saw mi teachers and they remembered mee . as in they might remember some of us but not our names but the teachers of mine remembered mi name . soo touching . i also got see the others in her class ... p4 . they are totally cute . they are so innocent . like what we always noe ... teacher , teacher he bully mi . they are so cute
wad do you think of being one of the teachers' memory ?? Maybe this does not mean anithing to you but ... wad about mi .... i am really veri happi that i can jump off the building and die (haha)
have to go somewhere .. busy then ... bye
All the best and keep in contact :)
Bye
WenYan

journal_03

2005-08-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

ha ... todae dunno happi or sad .
nothin to talk about . nothin to play about . nothin to enjoy about . this is a bad and unhappy day for mani of us ...i think. maths test like something bad . nothing better . teacher also like that . class also like that. nothing beats having a good sleep and taking a gd night's rest . hoping that nothing would happen juz in middle of the night . maybe ... a gd dream ... a sweet dream ??maybe :)
u think going to school is fun ?? NO . Making alot of friendsid fun .. NO . they are juz what we know as crap .maybe u think that making friends is a fun thing ... but the outcome is more trouble . sometimes being alone and yrself is certainly a better idea . scolding and blaming people is such an important part of mi life now . without that , i would go bonkers . siao . die . maybe juz a few friends juz like michelle and chiang lin . they are juz best and very helpful friends i have ever met . they are like ... perfectly cool friends .
nothin to write about . juz giving u guys some jokes :

Why teachers hates students :

One day , in abc school , the teacher asked what was so bad about studying that we all do not like . one of mi friends have juz died of studying . too much stress to take . i told my teacher . when i go up to heaven , i would ask her . then the teacher asked .. what if u go to hell ? then u would ask her coz i would not go to hell .

haha.
lame .
nothing better to say .
aniwae , no mood to write
sorry for my crap .
thanks
bb

WenYan

Journal_02

2005-08-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

Hihi ,
nice to see you guys again...
todae is a boring but quite sad day in school . many of us had been wanting to sleep and not listen to the teachers' lesson . Although my instinct tell me to sleep and take a nie wonderful rest , i tried hard to pay attention ... really it was :( Then many things happened in school .
Quarrel between they two ... YuTing and WeiLi
Sometimes i really dunno who should i believe as you knoe .... i think weili is changing for the better and yuting has always been a good friend in my heart . But because of some matters it has all changed . This has really changed the way i treat and look at my friends . As in i really appreciate their care and concern but sometimes , i juz don't how to return the nice and warm greetings to each other . feel that i am drifting apart from the class . i seem to know no one. and no one seem to knoe mi except ... michelle . she is really mi best friend in the class . appreciate her like nothing . i think she really helped and she is a kind and nice friend . kind to knoe that . kennedy too . although he is really naggy sometimes , he makes a nice and wonderful friend ... brother . i also find that people like fiona and brianna do also hang out with the dumb nerds like us . that really makes the day .
really happi but sad . should i be happi or sad . i find that the ones i know better are actually not veri close friends except a few , not to name them . but the others , i think that they really are friends from the heaven . they really help mi in the times when i need them and also help the class in silence . although they did not really pay much attention to the class last year , they might actually know and realise that a class is important to be united . they are starting to study more and more . they really influence us positively . how i wished i could stay in the class 4eva .
i really dunno whether i should be more strict with the class . sorry kamesh and meiearn for asking u guys to be the scapegoat . i have been asking them to help keep the class quiet . maybe jiahao also . but sometimes i think that we need a quiet environment to study and produce and better piece of better work . they may not be easily found as i think many of us , including mi also have a hard time shutting up . It is a real torture not to talk .
Aiyah ... too much to complain bout ' . Hope that i would be more happi after writing .. i think so . aniwae , sorry for the loso stuff u have juz read . Thanks for visiting aniway . God bless and hope that the quarrel between yuting and weili can be resolved as fast as possible . let the class be peaceful and nice to have a better relationship between one another.
WenYan

Journal_01

2005-08-09T00:25:00.000-07:00

Hihi... everyone :) Nice to now that u visit mi blog . Been a long time since i have posted something on mi blog as the old one was in Easyjournal . Although that service was quite good , this blogspot have more things which wre not available in Easyjournal ...
Solli bout that :(
Aniwae , how is everything for u guys ? Gd ? Hope so . Just thinking if this happens ....

1 ) I got the top position in school
2 ) highest rank in my CCA
3 ) No Homework
4 ) Relax and play everyday
5 ) Just concentrate on CCAs

how nice would that be ?? Don't you think so ? If i have the power , the 1st thing i would want to wish for is the exellence in Academic . Then hoping for CCA .
I know of many friends who have exel in both academic and also CCAs . It not only help mentally but also physically . Lets count our blessings ....
1) Good and caring friends and buddies around me
2) Wonderful CCA ( Student Council and GB )
3) Best classmates eva ...
These are the few things / people that cheer mi up . Thank God for such a blessing upon me :)
What would be your blessing and wishes for others for this year....
Share your thoughts with mi and i'll sure try mi best to help ..
Thanks
BB

WenYan